當一個女生堅強久了
好像她的堅強就變得理所當然
所以都忘記了
她也是女孩，也需要保護、需要依靠
好像她的堅強就變得理所當然
所以都忘記了
她也是女孩，也需要保護、需要依靠
Wednesday, 19 November 2014
一個人
做這樣的一個人
自己賺錢給自己花
永遠相信愛情，我們可能活在異鄉
哪怕滿身傷痕卻不哭給別人看
在別人眼裡，我們總光彩照人
而其實我們知道，我們不過是堅強的活著...
每個人，都有自己的了不起
不需要任何人來證明
不要看不起別人
不要輕易否定了自己
每個人最大的精彩，就是獨立
自己賺錢給自己花
永遠相信愛情，我們可能活在異鄉
哪怕滿身傷痕卻不哭給別人看
在別人眼裡，我們總光彩照人
而其實我們知道，我們不過是堅強的活著...
每個人，都有自己的了不起
不需要任何人來證明
不要看不起別人
不要輕易否定了自己
每個人最大的精彩，就是獨立
Future Me, Will You Still Be Reading?
Hi, it been sometime to blog something. Likes probably months or one year. I used to like to blog even if it interrupt with my studies, I will still try to squeeze sometimes to post sometimes I think it is value to learn.
This blog post maybe quite long so bare with me. Haha but this blog post probably no one will see also but this letter will be for the future me to over look, I guess.
Actually I had finish my AS Level, last week. I had involved myself nothing but watch movie or drama that I unable to watch so it been like whole weekend spending useless doing nothing but shit. I often like stay at home or preferably at a room that I can fantasy the movie that I had download. Plus, even through with the driving license I had, I am scared of drive so staying at home probably is the best ideas.
All of my pals are having struggling in their studies, as we are all grow up now. Every person around me is not staying around me but growing stronger and mighty everyday, and yet I remain the way I am, naive and idiotic and never work hard - I don't even believe you reap what you sow; I wonder how shitty results I came out with. While typing, I even hurt my own words, how pointless?
I been thinking which path I should choose in the future. To be honest, I like law pretty much than other subject but due to financial problem and situations, I can't be selfish and greedy of demanding to studying probably in UK even though KL have law course but if without going ahead having CLP - you are nothing but just a law graduate student so I choose another path.
I been into early childhood education for a while. I guess I think it is better for me to stay in those world, I am not good with communication with others and bad in calculation - so the path had been set down narrow. I try to think in the bright side but I wonder what the hell I am good at actually?
With that half ass shitty attitude of mine, never endless jealousy in me, I don't even had the idea of having a person able to stay beside me during good or bad situation, it is not about friends but in relationship with someone. Who able to stand against all the bad and madness personality like me? Sometimes, I wonder is there someone in the world, need and find me to become a partner?
I had been admiring those people who able to find the other one. It feels great to have someone to accompany you through good and bad times. This world is in chaos, it is hard to find someone who can true and loyal to you, those who approach you probably had things on their mind and might ended up wounded you. So all you can do is to protect people from entering to that wall - only that way probably, I wouldn't get all teary and scars that are unable to erase from its memories.
I am trying to find something that are useful to do in my life. But no matter what I did, I only leave depression or bad image to others. The words I sprout are full with thorn, anger that cannot be easily to deal with - I wonder who the hell will able to will stand and be there for me.
I know human are greedy creature that their needs are never ending demands. But I don't wanna be like them, all I want is that the people around me able to be healthy and safe and sound. I don't mind that I had a bad health, bad shape, bad luck and tough life ahead of me, as long as those who I love are able to make it through then is okay.
Once, I trust Lord, but somehow now it turns out that I don't trust them but instead I think I trust my ability of holding my life through my life is boring and fuzzy but I still able to stand against it. I am not sure whether hardship is still up ahead me but still I wanna make my life interesting.
I likes kid. They represents naive, kindness and happiness to me. I had always never thought of studying depth for early education childhood. Because I had a huge problem that is bad temper, once I angry I show all around my face. But I really wanna change it but well, that is my personality not like I can change it in just one night right? I always tell myself to calm down, don't say a word or nag - cause you don't think it is annoying but others will.
However, things wouldn't work out the way I want it to be. I always get angry before I can disgust all the words, I had pour it out to someone. I often hurt someone unconsciously, plus I am not that pretty so people will gives us the bad and poor image of me before they even get to know me. I often comfort myself that sometimes silent are better than speaking.
Through sometimes, I able to maintain myself to calm down and silent but people often misunderstand me and even come across to misjudge that I am unhappy with their action or words. I know we cannot pleasure everyone but sometimes it bother us very much.
Some people even say when the day comes that you don't bother about people thoughts, that day will be your victory. I am hoping that that particular day will ascended because then I wouldn't be so upset about little things that should not be matter the most.
I am now graving for freedom. The taste of freedom that makes everything perfect into pieces. Now that we are adult, I had never thought of getting myself a lover or anything, some even ask me will you able to will stand against lure - like eg one night stand. To be honest, that had not been incur to me. Whether giving away to that particular special person or to keep it for that person to come had not gone into my mind yet I come to into conclusion that probably I will be the one who take my virginity before others those it. That makes others laugh with this answer I had.
I am not sure what future I will had but I really hope that there will be someone there for me, a family which I can call as home.
Thanks for seeing all this bunch of bullshit. It is annoying, I know but I type it.
19/11/14
This blog post maybe quite long so bare with me. Haha but this blog post probably no one will see also but this letter will be for the future me to over look, I guess.
Actually I had finish my AS Level, last week. I had involved myself nothing but watch movie or drama that I unable to watch so it been like whole weekend spending useless doing nothing but shit. I often like stay at home or preferably at a room that I can fantasy the movie that I had download. Plus, even through with the driving license I had, I am scared of drive so staying at home probably is the best ideas.
All of my pals are having struggling in their studies, as we are all grow up now. Every person around me is not staying around me but growing stronger and mighty everyday, and yet I remain the way I am, naive and idiotic and never work hard - I don't even believe you reap what you sow; I wonder how shitty results I came out with. While typing, I even hurt my own words, how pointless?
I been thinking which path I should choose in the future. To be honest, I like law pretty much than other subject but due to financial problem and situations, I can't be selfish and greedy of demanding to studying probably in UK even though KL have law course but if without going ahead having CLP - you are nothing but just a law graduate student so I choose another path.
I been into early childhood education for a while. I guess I think it is better for me to stay in those world, I am not good with communication with others and bad in calculation - so the path had been set down narrow. I try to think in the bright side but I wonder what the hell I am good at actually?
With that half ass shitty attitude of mine, never endless jealousy in me, I don't even had the idea of having a person able to stay beside me during good or bad situation, it is not about friends but in relationship with someone. Who able to stand against all the bad and madness personality like me? Sometimes, I wonder is there someone in the world, need and find me to become a partner?
I had been admiring those people who able to find the other one. It feels great to have someone to accompany you through good and bad times. This world is in chaos, it is hard to find someone who can true and loyal to you, those who approach you probably had things on their mind and might ended up wounded you. So all you can do is to protect people from entering to that wall - only that way probably, I wouldn't get all teary and scars that are unable to erase from its memories.
I am trying to find something that are useful to do in my life. But no matter what I did, I only leave depression or bad image to others. The words I sprout are full with thorn, anger that cannot be easily to deal with - I wonder who the hell will able to will stand and be there for me.
I know human are greedy creature that their needs are never ending demands. But I don't wanna be like them, all I want is that the people around me able to be healthy and safe and sound. I don't mind that I had a bad health, bad shape, bad luck and tough life ahead of me, as long as those who I love are able to make it through then is okay.
Once, I trust Lord, but somehow now it turns out that I don't trust them but instead I think I trust my ability of holding my life through my life is boring and fuzzy but I still able to stand against it. I am not sure whether hardship is still up ahead me but still I wanna make my life interesting.
I likes kid. They represents naive, kindness and happiness to me. I had always never thought of studying depth for early education childhood. Because I had a huge problem that is bad temper, once I angry I show all around my face. But I really wanna change it but well, that is my personality not like I can change it in just one night right? I always tell myself to calm down, don't say a word or nag - cause you don't think it is annoying but others will.
However, things wouldn't work out the way I want it to be. I always get angry before I can disgust all the words, I had pour it out to someone. I often hurt someone unconsciously, plus I am not that pretty so people will gives us the bad and poor image of me before they even get to know me. I often comfort myself that sometimes silent are better than speaking.
Through sometimes, I able to maintain myself to calm down and silent but people often misunderstand me and even come across to misjudge that I am unhappy with their action or words. I know we cannot pleasure everyone but sometimes it bother us very much.
Some people even say when the day comes that you don't bother about people thoughts, that day will be your victory. I am hoping that that particular day will ascended because then I wouldn't be so upset about little things that should not be matter the most.
I am now graving for freedom. The taste of freedom that makes everything perfect into pieces. Now that we are adult, I had never thought of getting myself a lover or anything, some even ask me will you able to will stand against lure - like eg one night stand. To be honest, that had not been incur to me. Whether giving away to that particular special person or to keep it for that person to come had not gone into my mind yet I come to into conclusion that probably I will be the one who take my virginity before others those it. That makes others laugh with this answer I had.
I am not sure what future I will had but I really hope that there will be someone there for me, a family which I can call as home.
Thanks for seeing all this bunch of bullshit. It is annoying, I know but I type it.
19/11/14
Monday, 9 June 2014
我只需要，你需要我
希望難過時會聯絡我
迷路時會告訴、我無助時想起我
喝醉後打電話是給我
冷的時候、困的時候、失落的時候
我都想是你的第一順位
想說話的時候、開心的時候
無聊的時候、絕望的時候
我想成為你生命裡不可或缺的人
別說我要的太多，我只需要，你需要我
迷路時會告訴、我無助時想起我
喝醉後打電話是給我
冷的時候、困的時候、失落的時候
我都想是你的第一順位
想說話的時候、開心的時候
無聊的時候、絕望的時候
我想成為你生命裡不可或缺的人
別說我要的太多，我只需要，你需要我
Saturday, 10 May 2014
堅強
想哭的時候，閉上眼睛不讓它流淚；
傷心的時候，找個地方靜靜的發呆，
告訴自己、要堅強；
孤獨寂寞的時候，靜靜的想著某人，
聽那些一起聽過的歌；
難過的時候，學會了偽裝自己，對別人笑；
失落的時候，笑著對自己說、沒事的；
失敗的時候，儘管無力也要爬起來，
告訴別人，我很堅強。
傷心的時候，找個地方靜靜的發呆，
告訴自己、要堅強；
孤獨寂寞的時候，靜靜的想著某人，
聽那些一起聽過的歌；
難過的時候，學會了偽裝自己，對別人笑；
失落的時候，笑著對自己說、沒事的；
失敗的時候，儘管無力也要爬起來，
告訴別人，我很堅強。
Friday, 4 April 2014
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